Since as long as I can remember, I’ve suffered from depression and anxiety. I’m 35 and I first realized something wasn’t right in my early teens. That’s when I went to seek help. I have been on MANY different meds and tried alternative therapies such as acupuncture, chiropractic, natural medicine, talk therapy, and energy balancing, all with little or no benefit. If there was a benefit, it was always short term and nothing would stick. I’ve seen many different doctors, therapists, counselors, psychologists, psychiatrists and other mental health professionals over the course of 25 years, but my condition progressively worsened.
Depression has affected all aspects of my life….my family, friends, jobs, activities and happiness. I always felt like a failure, and that I let everyone down. My father took his own life when I was 5. I think I put my 5 year old self into a box then and locked it away. Seclusion always seemed like the best solution….for me, and for everyone around me.
I’ve lost many good paying jobs due to not being able to function as a normal person could. In March of 2012, I lost my last job. It was a shock. I was hurt and started spiraling downward until I hit rock bottom. I didn’t want to exist. I have 2 beautiful kids, and didn’t want to put them through what I had endured as a child. If I didn’t have those kids, things may have been different.
I heard about Brain Matters and Brainwave Optimization on the radio. For 6 months I told myself that I wanted to look into it. It wasn’t until I hit rock bottom that I finally called Brenda. That one call saved me. Brenda immediately had me in for an assessment. She fully discussed the process and what I could expect. It definitely sounded too good to be true, but I asked to be booked for sessions. I was desperate to feel better, even a little.
Sessions began a few days after the assessment review. I was able to do 2 sessions per day over the course of 2 weeks. After my 4th session, I felt like I was on top of the world, but felt like I was slipping back during the next 2 days. Brenda assured me that I got a taste of what I could feel like after the end of the full intensive, and we continued on.
During my sessions, my quality of sleep greatly improved. My racing thoughts subsided. I was very happy with how I was beginning to feel. When my sessions were complete I felt like a new person. I was calm. I was able to control my anxiety. My brain wasn’t cloudy. I was happy. I was content. I had no idea I was going to feel that good following the sessions!
Three months later, I am still calm. I’m able to control my thoughts and have started to come off my meds. Mostly, I’ve NEVER felt happier. I appreciate things more, I “feel” more. I’m not emotionless, nor am I living day to day in a fog of misery and despair. My relationship with my wife has never been better. My kids don’t walk on eggshells around me anymore, and they have their dad back. Family and friends have noticed a HUGE difference in my personality, my ambition, and how I deal with stress and daily life. I have noticed a HUGE difference in my energy. I can accomplish more in a day that I could previously do in a month! I’m on the ball. I’m not constantly groggy or sleepy. I have a memory. My mind feels as if it has opened up from being closed and locked. I’m able to be creative, I’m motivated, and I can learn & retain information.
I’ve started a new job, and things couldn’t be going better. Things which would previously be stumbling blocks are now only bumps in the road. I have more patience now than I know what to do with. I was always so impatient before Brainwave Optimization.
Had I known I was going to have this extreme level of success with the sessions, I would have done this long ago. I feel I wasted so much of my life being miserable and unhappy. I can’t put a price on how good I feel now. Honestly, my newfound happiness is better than winning the lottery!
Optimized by: Brenda Sharp
Brain Matters - St. Catharines, Ontario, Canada