Alpha Up - Amsterdam, Netherlands
Issue: Anxiousness, Cognition, Lack of Focus, Stress
Anxiety, stress and brain fog have always been with me. I have NEVER been able to follow teachers/professors during lectures in my life. This has happened regardless of the difficulty of the subject matter being taught. When I am talking to somebody about something very mundane (say the weather, or plans for dining together and what we would be cooking), I miss about 30-70 percent of the information, sometimes even more. If you were to verbally ask me a question that extends for more than 15 seconds, I will not be able to follow your question because my attention span is less than 15 seconds. I used to meditate and time myself in an effort to focus for 60 seconds but I never succeeded. The fact that I did get through an engineering degree with a decent grade is one of the wonders of the world, hands down. I have not come across anybody in my circle who is as messed up in the brain as myself. This all has led to immense ADD induced stress and depression in my life and I was on the verge of breakdown. Burying my head in the sand could not help anymore. Nothing was working. I was losing control over myself. I could be okay now and in five minutes I could suddenly get so angry I could shatter a television. Yes, I was headed for breakdown. Every ADHD guy walking out there who wants to achieve something in life is a time bomb. He will explode one day out of frustration. I had to do something decisive and I am glad I took the initiative to go for Brainwave Optimization.I plan to complete 15 sessions over a period of 11 days in Amsterdam, thanks to Paulo and his kindness.
After just 5 sessions I feel positively surreal. I am not sure how well you will be able to get into my head and see the world through my eyes, but you can try. Before I started Brainwave Optimization, I was a different person. The effects of BST have been nothing short of profound. If these effects are permanent, my life has already taken a rebirth. I am different now. I feel differently. I think differently. I act different. My friend with whom I have been staying in Amsterdam has also noticed the difference in my behaviour pattern and commented on it. Yes, a new life, a better one!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The first session itself was a breakthrough. I walked out of the first session in the new district of Amsterdam adorned by posh office buildings and cool metroways and felt like I have never felt in my life, at least in a long,long time. It was like living in an alert and meditative state. (And it is right now. As I write this, I am absolutely relaxed, blissful and focused.) The effects were deep. Depression, anxiety, fear, worry, anger- my mind refused to identify these terms.
After the subsequent sessions, the results plateaued and were much more subtle. I completed the fifth session today. It has been pretty intense for the brain, so much so that I experienced fatigue yesterday. I was able to eliminate this fatigue by taking a lot of fish oil capsules as recommended. I got the feeling that it is very important to eat very good and well balanced food during the sessions and maintain a healthy routine to optimize the results.
I have indeed extended my attention span. I can read better and perform mathematical calculations in the head better than I used to be able to do. As already mentioned I am no longer depressed, worried, or anxious. I am more alert and focused. My attention span needs more working on and I am sure it can get only better with the upcoming sessions. Going to BST has been like rebooting my system. The effect has been physical, I feel the brain getting better nurtured as though it has opened up channels to feed itself with more blood and nutrition. Otherwise, I used to feel empty and fatigued deep inside the brain. I had to keep the brain on a nutritional high to allow it to function normally. This was of course a lot of work and was dragging my life down. I'm not a neuroscientist and don't understand the process very much, I must admit, but it seems to work.
Before my sessions I had to work hard to eat the right kinds of food to make sure my brain was functional. I was showing tell tale signs of Alzheimer’s- I swear to God this disease was on the destiny card of my life. Living a normal life was challenging and my life and aspirations were in serious jeopardy. Now, my tolerance for conventional food has spiked. I used to get constipated if I ate cheese and white bread and it hurt deep inside my stomach(I’ve got issues in there as well). My stomach felt weak and very irritable, but this irritability has been eliminated after the sessions. My tolerance for the kind of eating habits and foods that devastated me has increased. I have been eating heavy oily dinners and not even getting a belch in the morning. Normally this kind food would have wreaked havoc in me and I would not have managed to sleep throughout the night. My digestive system has definitely been boosted. I had this backpain that seems to have vanished after the sessions. My right eye vision was a little blurry and this seems to have cleared up as well. My voice is clearer, louder, and more precise. My speech and general linguistic abilities have also gotten better. I used to stop in the middle of a sentence to find words to say but now my sentences just kind of flow smoothly. My typing has also gotten more precise and faster I guess. It is as though the brain is revisiting the body on a different level. I was swimming butterfly on the weekend after BST sessions and I could feel I was doing better at this stroke. My body was more in tune with the mind and its instructions. I could swim better technically. I can also run better and longer because the anxiety is nonexistent, and I am simply enjoying the act of running.
After 15 sessions:
After 15 sessions, ironically I feel a little more anxious than I did after the first 4 sessions, which were intensive. There has been a slight return in my anxiety level. Maybe this has to do with the way I chose to distribute my sessions. The return of the anxiety started on the third day when I chose to do only one session because of the brain fatigue I experienced on the previous day. Now I realized I should have continued with 2 sessions intensive per day, eaten better food, and done more exercise to deal with the fatigue instead.
I think this return of anxiety also has to do with the environment I am living in. I am doing pretty much nothing right now. I realize the machine has done its best and now it is my responsibility to keep myself in balance. As I write this, I am not anxious at all because my mind is actively engaged in this act. If I sit around doing nothing that engages my mind, it is possible that my anxiety might return a little bit.
The BST sessions have been my saviour I must admit. I have gained inner peace and the confidence to be able to move on with my life and face new challenges. This sense of inner peace is absolutely divine for someone like myself who's been under constant anxiety for at least the last 5 years. It may or may not be a panacea to all psychological problems, but it certainly is a huge helper.
I just finished my 15 sessions yesterday and I am looking forward to seeing how I fare in the next upcoming months, whether or not the results will stick or even get better or worse for that matter. And I feel lucky that such a non invasive technology is among us and I had the intelligence to tap into it. My heartfelt regards go out for those who have been struggling with broken minds. I hope BST gains a much wider market in the coming years, making it more accessible to those who are not so financially privileged.
Optimized by: Paulo Buijs
Amsterdam, Netherlands – Alpha-up